New Blogpost Preview: There are times when I think about what side of the pain I would rather be on, when you have to deliver bad news to a patient or their family. Do envy the provider, who can deliver the news and be genuinely sorry, but have the chance to walk away, in the end? Am I supposed to find contentment in being the one who must stay there and be a silent keeper of broken souls, hopes, and dreams for 8 hours, 10 hours, or 12 hours?
One day I realized that I don’t envy the providers side of what patients feel are death sentences. Yes they walk away, but I know they walk away with heavy hearts. Though their body leaves a situation, often times their minds and thoughts linger. So many of them, no matter how brilliant or efficient they may be, go home asking themselves, “could I have done more?”
The fact of the matter is, that they (providers) may have had to deal out “death sentences” or drop the proverbial “bomb” on people multiple times in one day. People that they’ve just met, patients that’s they known for years. I had a friend friend who told me sometimes he goes home, after a rough day, feeling like the grim reaper. So I don’t envy the providers, instead I gladly remain in my role as the keeper of broken things and spirits. The one who tries to help everyone navigate the treacherous sea of the unknown, without being drowned myself. For no matter how bad the news may be or how broken-hearted the patient and their family are, the heaviness of the diagnosis doesn’t sleep on my chest at night. I don’t own the pain that physicians, and PAs, and NPs sometimes feel.....
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