San Francisco and I have not had the best week. Rooted in sheer exhaustion from days of very, very, very, very bad sleep & coupled with a few circumstances that need our attention & action sooner than we had hoped, I've been blaming SF for a whole manner of woes. At the risk of sounding arrogant, living in a big city is amazing. It envelops you in its whirlpool and surrounds you with all manners of energy. People walk faster. They do things quicker. They want things immediately. Most of the time, they are here because they have worked very hard to experience this & (hopefully) stake their name on something bigger than they could have reached from where they were from. Big cities are full of big dreamers, there is no way to argue that point. And the proximity to that is very invigorating.
However, they also have a way of exacerbating simple things. Things that were easy to tackle in Portland require such great energy here. I feel like we don't easily do anything. Everything requires planning, prodding, and effort. The whirlpool you're in, full of promise & doers, also can flow so fast that you're not even sure where the exit is. Sometimes you don't want to be in the current. You want to be safe on the top of a rock - quietly, methodically & slowly plotting your next move. But there are no rocks. There's just a swift-moving pool that you jump into, plugging your nose & working to keep your head above water.
I don't live in negativity very long & I do pride myself on my ability to, after a very necessary pity-party, brush off the negative & look for ways forward that are reasonable & measured. SF, beautiful, stunning SF, & I will make up again. And things will go on as they should. But for now. For today. I'm enjoying SF, in theory, more than in reality. But I do know that while I live in a city that, figuratively & literally, surrounds me with its famous choppy water, it also bears an equally famous large rock smack dab in the middle. A port in the storm. A resting place above the current. A reminder I greatly appreciate// #deepthoughtsbyjackhandey #sf #sanfrancisco #motherdaughter #alcatraz #citybythebay - 4 hours ago