At 322 pounds, I felt like I was 90 years old. It was hard getting up and down off the couch. My knees hurt. I would get winded trying to tie my shoes. I was tired all the time. My body just didn’t feel good.
Unfortunately, I focused more on my appearance, rather than how I felt. My attempts to lose weight were usually motivated by my false beliefs that thin = sexy = more loveable.
I would always tell myself, when starting a new diet, that I was doing it for me and my health. I thought I believed that. I thought that was my motivation. But I wasn’t being honest with myself. It was about my appearance.
Health is a lifelong pursuit, and dieting is not the answer. I didn’t want to accept this fact, so I kept looking for diets and the next miracle cure. Something fast and easy, just to get me where I thought I needed to go as quickly as possible.
In January 2016, my motivation for weight loss shifted slightly. I still wanted to lose weight, because I believed how I looked made a difference in my loveability, but, this time, a small part of me wanted to change for me. To change for real. To change for life, not just temporarily. Because I knew I deserved to feel better.
A small part of me realized there was more to me than just my weight or what I looked like. A small part of me realized that my life mattered.
This small shift created a willingness to learn how to love myself and pay attention more and more to how my body felt. It wasn’t just about losing weight at all costs. It was about supporting my body and changing what I was doing.
This meant juice fasting and detoxing, combined with building a foundation of low fat, high raw, plant based eating. I had been marinating on the information in @HMINutritionSchool ’s 66 Day Health Mastery Program for two years. I had learned a low fat, plant based diet was the only diet that’s been proven to prevent and actually completely reverse heart disease. People were also losing weight and healing from diabetes and cancer. (Cont'd in comments) - 4 hours ago