Final post from my #India #Diaries .
Sometimes you lie awake in bed at night, other times you sit at daydream in the middle of the afternoon .. Most of the time you procrastinate your way through life...
Lights of life; sometimes consciously switched on, mostly ignored and taken for granted.
Here, at Best Western hotel, I stared at the chandelier; not knowing whether I felt despair, desperation or drive... But what I did know, was that no matter how hard I tried to block it out, people and places found a way of pivoting every inch of ground I stood on... And like light, that shines only because of darkness, a candle burns only to melt the wax and ash the wick; I exist only as a relationship tag, where I am nonsense and everyone else, under the pretense of 'caring' - eliminates, destroys and carves through me while my head goes tick tick tick... Still, there is a voice inside that says, "Every ray has it's day..." And now, no matter what else comes my way, I know I'll be okay.
#thelastsupper #theend #Indore #light #chandelier #obsession #toobusy #lookingup #signingout #finalmoments #litup #iwishyouknew #thelastpicture #lessonlearned #diaryentry - 4 months ago